Single parents, you are AMAZING! To you I give my utmost respect.
Like he often does, Jason left early yesterday morning for a short work trip – a 48 hour jaunt to Seattle. Just a few hours into the day I already felt as though I was losing my mind. The baby was refusing to nap, although he was beyond tired. The toddler, as per usual, was refusing to listen to my pleas: “stop drawing on the walls” and “stop climbing on the table” and “stop hitting your baby brother with the dog’s chew toys.” But wise enough to know that I am physically compromised while holding an inconsolable baby, she is learning how and when to test her boundaries. By 9:30 a.m. (yes, in the morning) I was staring at the blinking clock on the kitchen wall and counting down the hours before bedtime.
Oh these days, they stretch long before me.
It is at these times that I must remind myself what someone once said to me: “The days are long but the years are short.”
It is so true. Most mornings I wake up daunted by the day which will surely demand from me more physically and mentally than I am able. And I am just waiting. Waiting for nap time, waiting for Jason to come home, waiting for bedtime. Then suddenly I look at my children, the two precious things that I brought into this world, and they are so grown up and I want to weep inside because life only moves forwards and so much time has been spent waiting.
This picture is from Wednesday. Eden, always exhausted since giving up naps, fell asleep in the car on our way to meet Jason for dinner. He picked her up from the carseat, carried her into the restaurant, and held her for at least 45 minutes while she continued to sleep on him. And as I watched her sleeping it hit me that the days of holding this sweet sleeping babe in our arms are few and numbered. And I can’t stand that thought.
So despite these long days, especially the solo-parenting ones, I must remember these precious times for they will be gone all too fast.
However, yesterday Eden was a little extra defiant, as she always is when Jason goes out of town, and it took a little extra bribing and convincing to get her to do anything. It was a truly fortunate thing that I had a batch of these Homemade Orange Creamsicle in my freezer.
Creamy, citrus-y, and delicious, these simple treats are made with just four healthful ingredients to make the perfect kid’s snack (read: kid’s bribe) on these sweet, warm days of early summer. As Eden and I snacked on our popsicles, she asked to “cheers” them together. As we pressed our melty orange creamsicles side-by-side she smiled and with her eyes gave me all the reassurance I needed to feel her deep deep love.
- 1 can full fat coconut milk
- 1 cup orange juice concentrate
- 3 tbsp agave nectar
- 1 tsp vanilla extract
- Blend all the ingredients together until mixture is completely smooth.
- Pour into popsicle molds and place in freezer until frozen all the way through.
- Pop out of molds and enjoy!
A cheers to my sweet girl:
May I be ever present in this life. May I feel gratitude for all the ways in which I am blessed. And may I live this life so that I look back without regret.
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